12.05.2013

Six Months - Living It Up

*Written December 5th, 2013*

Today marks exactly 6 months post-divorce. 

It feels so weird to say that - some days it feels like it just happened and some days I forget how long it's actually been.

Anyway, for those of you who follow me on Twitter or Instagram or are friends with me on Facebook, you know that the past 6 months have been…interesting. To say life after divorce is a roller coaster would be the understatement of the century.

Every day, every moment, it's a toss up with how I'll feel. I can go days at a time without thinking of Josh, our old life, or the memories. But on the days I do remember, it's hard to shake the emptiness and I find myself wanting only three things - food, Netflix, and someone to hold me.

That being said, I'm doing better than I thought I'd be doing at this point in time. Remember those days when I couldn't do anything but cry and blog? Well, I'm pleased to say those days are far behind me! I've been keeping busier than ever before (and that's saying something) and love every second of my exhausting life.

I'm working 2 jobs - a nanny and a hostess/events assistant at a local country club - and I'm going back to school full time for event management. Only 2 semesters left and I'll officially be certified.

The past few months I've traveled a bit (post coming soon on my trip to see Jamie!!!), gotten out of my shell by going out to karaoke every other weekend, made new friends, and so much more. I'm actually very proud of my anti-social self!

Speaking of being anti-social…I've also started DATING again! *gasp* In my 4 month update (which, yes, I only posted two days ago) I mentioned that I'd created an online dating profile back in June. I wasn't prepared for how horrible dating was going to be in the beginning, but I think I've fallen into a good groove recently and I'm enjoying myself immensely. Stay tuned for a post on the nightmarish messages I've received - they're a hoot and a half, y'all.

Anyway, that's an overview of what I've been up to the last few months and I'll keep you updated in 3 or 6 month increments…I have yet to decide.

I hope you're all doing well and I CAN'T WAIT to catch up on your blogs over the Christmas break. :)


12.04.2013

Three Months - On Top of the World

*Written September 5th, 2013*

Today is officially three months since we signed the divorce papers.

It is BEYOND my comprehension how time flew by and I seemed to miss it these past few months, but all I know is that I'm still alive and I've got big dreams exploding out of my brain at all times. So I guess we can call that a win?

What's been happening in my life since June 5th?

*I've been spoiling Chevy like crazy.

*I've been eating copious amounts of Jimmy John's.

*I completed 2 more online classes towards an office administration certification.

*I worked 2 months at a nannying job for 3 older kids. My easiest nanny gig to date.

*I FINALLY received my Starbucks gold card…6 months late.

*I finished all 10 seasons of Friends and bawled like a baby. Divorce emotions or not, the ending was crocodile tear worthy.

*We got some crazy ass storms in C-U. Some of which J decided to bike through.

*I went to the Q87.7 PIQNIQ in Tinley Park with J, my cousin Rebekah, and her husband, Scott. Twenty One Pilots and Awolnation were fantastic.

*I took my first ever bubble bath of my adult life. It was magical.

*J's grandfather died. His funeral was also the last Nix family gathering I will ever attend.

*I got another tattoo (and will be getting #3 next weekend!).

*I packed up the apartment and my parents took the majority of it home with them the third weekend of July.

*I created an online dating profile. It felt like the right time. More on this later.

*I officially moved back in with my parents. If you want to know what hell feels like, try sharing a kitchen with your mother.

*My parents, my friend Kyle, and my best friend's mom, and myself had a 2 weekend marathon garage sale.

*I spent a much needed weekend away in Michigan. *sigh* My happy place.

*I drank more than I ever have in an attempt to celebrate my new life. I'm happy to report that I did not get sick, make out with any creeps, or even have a hangover. You can go ahead and hate me now. I guess I'm not as old as my body feels.

In the midst of all of this craziness, I've been consistently at an 85% on the happiness scale. For being three months post-divorce I've surprised even myself by feeling on top of the world. I'm owning more big dreams now than I ever have and I can't wait to see where my passion takes me. I've still got quite a ways to go, but forward motion and I are besties.

2013 is just now starting for me. And it's going to be my best year yet.