When the kisses were like fireworks and his touch made everything right again.
I'm missing Joshua tonight.
Not because I miss him per se, but because I miss having my best friend to "do life" with.
Things like randomly quote our favorite movies, play our favorite board games, watch our favorite TV shows on Netflix, eat at our favorite restaurants.....I just miss having someone who gets me, loves how much of a dork I am, and enjoys doing all of those things together. It's so rare in life that you fall madly for someone whose the same kind of weird as you. Tonight my mind is tricking me into believing I'll never find my "One" again.
I know that most of you are going to be tempted to comment with something encouraging along the lines of "so much better off without him," or "better things ahead," and I know that's the truth, but I can't help the way I feel at this moment. I can't help feeling lonely and just plain sad. I don't feel these things often, but I need to feel them once in a while. So please, just let me.
Tonight is just one of those nights.