This weekend I found out some news that should have made me happy - an old friend of mine announced that she was pregnant. Normally, I WOULD be happy about this news, but since the day we met this girl has made her life a contest, a race against mine.
When she and I met, Josh and I had been dating for a year and were recently engaged. She immediately gave her boyfriend of 2 years an ultimatum. When he didn't deliver, she cheated on him and dumped him...for a guy in the military. Then Josh and I got married in under 4 months and she was engaged to her new boyfriend by the end of that year.
Soon after they got engaged, she moved across the country to live with him and started nannying...for twin girls. Go figure. At first I assumed that marrying men in the military and moving to the East Coast was just a coincidence, but this new development proved that she wasn't just in a similar place in life; she was deliberately copying my life and racing to the "finish line."
This August, they got married, started trying to conceive immediately, closed on a house last week, and announced they were pregnant this weekend. And by the way she's acted from Day 1, I see that all of this is a way for her to "get ahead." It's her way of beating me at life.
But what's winning if its not real? What is having it all if your marriage isn't for love? What is it worth if you're only having a child to say you did it before everybody else? Why go into debt to purchase a house when its only to rub it in everyone's faces?
At this point in the game, I don't WANT to have it all - the cars, the house, the dream job, the offspring. Its so much work and neither Josh nor I have the time or energy to keep up with the responsibilities all those "adult successes" entail.
Right now, I don't want to have it all. I just want to have it all together.
Happy Friday, lovelies!
A few weeks back I signed up for one of the most popular swaps I've seen this season! I'm sure you've heard of Erin from Living in Yellow (and if you haven't - go now). She and Jessa from Dreaming of Dimples hosted a ginormous ornament round-robin of sorts and it was amazing to see the turn out!
My "sender" was Mary from Little Bit of Sass, Little Bit of Class and my "receiver" was Meesh from Finding Michelina (hop over to her blog to see what I sent her)!
Here's the goodies Mary sent me! I love stars at Christmastime and this one was so pretty and simple. I mean, who doesn't love gold and glitter??? And those gift tags are too adorable!
|And have you seen her sah-weeeet blog stamp? So jealous.|
Thank you for my ornament, Mary! I love it!
And thank you, Erin and Jessah, for hosting such a fun, sweet swap! I loved participating. :)
Posted by Mrs. Nix at 6:33 PM
Happy December, my friends!
Remember a few weeks back when Sara, Meghan, and I announced our Christmas mixed 'tape' swap? The reveal is finally here!
I love the Christmas season so much and receiving my swap CD from Ashley on the first day of December was the perfect way to kick off the Christmas spirit. I can't tell you how giddy I was to find it in my mailbox - I literally tore into it before I even got upstairs to my apartment!
Ashley blogs over at Ashley's Carnival Ride and is such a sweetheart. We had fun getting to know each other a bit over Twitter and her blog is adorable! You probably know her from the Sunday Social link-up that she hosts with Neely.
When I opened my package, I found a lovely card and a sweet note from Ashley. :) Then I saw that the entire CD was COUNTRY CHRISTMAS MUSIC! A combo of my favorite kinds of music (country and Christmas...if you couldn't already tell). I don't own any country music, so I am so psyched to start jamming to it.
Thank you so much, Ashley! You were a great partner and I'm so happy to have met another bloggy friend!
Don't forget to link up your reveal post below! I can't wait to see what great music you've swapped. :)
Posted by Mrs. Nix at 5:00 AM